As some of you know, I have left the game for almost two years (left in early 2017). Some friends I know on Tanktastic think I left because I am resentful towards the current update since I am a hardline supporter of Tanktastic v1. I never wanted to leave a game which I had played for almost 6 years and I always wanted to play it when I had my free time. The true reason I left the game is that I realized was harming a lot of community members and I was diagnosed as severe intermittent depression shortly after. Although I could just run away with that but that will not erase the trauma which sometimes comes back and haunts me.
In the past, I was a madman with very a bad temper. I have attacked or insulted a lot of my friends in this community. I once split with my friend Hawk96, Je4n, Stubentiger, Taylorortiz, Terminator_15, Smigstank, In98, Theencryptor12, Sexytiger, Psychosnake, Bane and Jersh multiple times for some nonsense, I also attacked Cata17, Error 403, Germanleader and Mikek for no reason. I left game because I felt guilty for my actions and I wanted to escape, but the feeling won't go away. So no matter if people are inactive now or not, have forgotten the things in the past now or not, I would like to say that I am sorry for all the drama I had caused, and the people I have harmed.
I can not expect your forgiveness and I can never forgive myself for the things I had done. The only thing I can say here is I wish you all will have a good time in both the community and real life.